Have you ever felt like you’re the only one on campus who does ______(insert anything here)?
I can guarantee that I have felt that way. I still do, for I am a Euphist.
See, in a lot of universities and groups in the states and, well, just about anywhere else, there are at least 2 or 3 euphonium players on campus. Roughly.
Where I go? I’m a lone wolf: without a partner, I stand alone, cry wail QQ.
All emo aside, it’s actually a perplexing situation, and to explain this I’ll have to tell you a story…
Moment of shame, when I was applying to get into universities, I applied to 5 different universities. 1 fucked up my application, so I was don to 4. After 3 disappointing auditions, I was down to the wire ’cause I knew this was my last shot. If I messed that one up… well, life was not going to end well.
So here I come to the last audition. I do the audition, which I was sure was mediocre at best, and then go home. I thought I was done for; but lo and behold, the last university accepted me! I was ecstatic, and couldn’t believe I had improved that much… and then I found out I was the first Euphonium to apply to that school in 5 years.
Well, what does that say about me?
Since then I’ve improved greatly, but every time I take a step in the halls of the faculty, I can’t help but wonder if I got in for merit… or because I play a Euphonium.
With the exception of the bassoonist, no one else quite has the same problem, and even the bassoonist doesn’t quite have the same feeling: she’s brilliant beyond words, works way too hard, and it really pays off for her. She’s easily one fo the best musicians on campus.
Me? Not so much.
So I try not to think about it too often, and look at it as a way to really show off what a Euphonium can do. I think that’s what’s best; but am I strange to have even thought about it in the first place?
Nonetheless, I am incredibly thankful for the university taking me on. Without them, I’d be lost on so many levels it’s not even funny; but it’s about time I show the school what I’m really capable of. It’s about time to show them why the Euphonium is the best instrument there is.
It’s about time I put my considerable talent and skill to actual work, for the first time in years. I’ll show them that they were right to take me on this year, this I promise you.