Sorry for the lack of posting.
I have a few good reasons for this, and none of which matter a single flying fuck to many; but it’s my blog and I’ll /rage/bitch/rant if I want to.
First of which, I’ve been all over the place in terms of things to do. Their are many things that take priority over the blog, or heck, I might not even have access to the internet. That such a terror inducing thing still exists is mind boggling, but somehow I manage. Or I don’t, seeing as my posting has been the suck as of lately.
Secondly, my computer bugged out and reset completely. I’ve been reinstalling, reformatting, and re-finding all of the things I had before. And I lost everything I had on the computer save my purchased iTunes music. Thank god, because I totally had spent at least $100 on the shiz. I lost all my videos, dowloads, games, addons, and pictures though.
Pictures. Like the ones of Lorelai and myself. Those were good.
I say were, because we are no longer. That’s the other thing: Lorelai and I broke up. Mutually, and in a freakishly civil fashion, I might add. Sure, it started out rough, but we were laughing by the end of it, and it could have been a lot worse.
The fact remains that I spent 3 years of my life living for someone, and now I feel relatively lost. I feel bored of everything, I feel frustrated, and I feel irritable. The world outside isn’t something I really want to work with. Right now, and I’m being frank, I feel like this shit is about as shitty as it gets.
I know it’s not the end of the world, and I have 3/4’s of my life left as of tomorrow (yay, 21 bitches) but… to be fair, she was my first girlfriend, ever. I have liked girls before, duh, but she was the first I loved. It’s just a new experience, and a really fucking painful one, ya know?
The worst part of it all is that I still don’t quite feel it. I mean, I feel like driftwood: I’m just kinda there.
But yeah, there’s the update. On top of which, there were a few calls in my general direction about jobs, and then nothing. So, not a good week.